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this is my big “fuck you” to all these pro-anorexia/pro-bulimia accounts on this website. Because they’re fucking sickening. This is the reality of eating disorders. They’re not fucking “cute” they’re not “fun” and they certainly won’t make you “happy” “skinny” and “popular” like you little twats seem to think. Eating disorders are MENTAL ILLNESSES, NOT DIETS OR LIFESTYLE CHOICES. You don’t wake up one day and decide to starve yourself because you think you’re fat and want to be “tiny and cute.” Want to know how my eating disorder started? I was raped. And in reaction to that I took control of the only thing I could control, which was my eating. I didn’t starve myself to be skinny, I didn’t starve myself so boys would like me, or to look more attractive, I starved myself to kill the pain that was inside of me. I never, EVER woke sat there and said “hm, I’m going to give anorexia a try” BECAUSE THAT IS NOT HOW IT WORKS. YOU DO NOT GET TO PICK AND CHOSE WHEN YOU HAVE AN EATING DISORDER. YOU DO NOT GET TO STOP WHENEVER YOU’RE “thin enough’ which NEWS FLASH TO THOSE OF YOU WHOSE “wanorexia” actually turns into a full blown eating disorder, YOU WILL NEVER BE THIN ENOUGH. I’m not saying this as a “you’ll never lose enough weight” thing, I’m literally telling you that in your own mind, it will never be enough. You think “Oh, I’ll get to 90 pounds and I’ll stop, I’ll be happy” wrong. “I’ll get to 85 pounds and I’ll be happy with myself” wrong. 80 pounds? wrong. 70 pounds? wrong wrong wrong. Because it will never be enough. No amount of restricting or purging will ever be enough, no amount of weight loss will ever be enough. Sitting there and glorifying an eating disorder which MOST (not all) of you PROBABLY self diagnosed yourself with is disgusting. Eating disorders are a disease of the mind, not of the body. By claiming that you’re CHOOSING anorexia or bulimia to “get thin” is a huge slap in the face to people that actually suffer from eating disorders. Back to the “cutesy” aspect that people seem to associate with eating disorders (thanks do you dumb fuck pro-anorexia sites.) The first photo up there is a photo of me at my lowest weight (which I’m not going to post incase that might trigger someone) yeah, I probably don’t even look that thin in that photo to some of you, yeah I’m smiling and look so happy. Guess what? I wasn’t. It took me HOURS to gather up the courage to take my shirt off that day, in front of my own family. And after seeing that photo I was disgusted with myself for how I looked. The second photo was taken a week before I tried to commit suicide. My hair was falling out in wads, I couldn’t sleep, my teeth were rotting, I was freezing in the dead of summer, I couldn’t deal with it. I took an entire bottle of sleeping pills a week later. The final picture for all you “ana worshipers” is a picture of my head, you know, since having anorexia is so fun and all? WRONG. After restricting my calories to an awfully low amount for a few weeks I still hadn’t lost weight and decided to lower my intake even more. Smart decision, on my part. I got in the car to drive somewhere and ended up blacking out and driving right into a pole. I cracked my head up and broke two of my ribs. I had to get 10 staples in my head just to hold it together. I could have died because I decided to drive that day. So you think that once you finally lose weight from “choosing ana” your life is going to be rainbows and butterflies? think again. For six years my life was a living hell. I never went out and went to parties, I never went to the beach in a little bikini and “felt confident”, I never did anything but sit there and think about food and calories ALL DAY LONG. So before you sit there and promote anorexia as a diet/lifestyle or a choice THINK ABOUT THE PEOPLE THAT ACTUALLY SUFFER WITH THE DISEASE. It’s not fun. It’s not cute. It’s nothing but pain and suffering every single day.
disclaimer: I am NOT pro-anorexia or pro bulimia. I am simply tagging the picture with those tags in hopes that the people that post under those tags/look under those tags see this post and have a wake up call.
My best friend who is struggling with anorexia was recently in a car accident because she had slammed into another car, she said she can’t even remember how it happened, she just did. She now has chemical burns all over her arms and her car is ruined. Since that, she has begun putting greater effort into her recovery, and is thriving.
Anorexia is not a fucking diet. It is not a choice. It is not beautiful. It is a disease that is killing more and more people every fucking day. How DARE you pro-ana nitwits encourage something that is so painful to truly suffer through.
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